“So many more insights were to come….”
FEAR (false sense of appearing real) continued to be forefront.
Next insight that presented was to look at my outgoings and living expenses. I had had momentary thoughts of selling my apartment but was not sure at this time whether that would achieve anything. As I didn’t know where I would go and rentals were extremely hard to get, becoming more and more expensive, and I didn’t have an income coming in.
I sat down with my pen, paper and calculator in the beginning of August 2021, to see what my expenses would be for this month. And wasn’t I in for a shock. I’m not sure where I had lost sight of what I was actually paying out, but somewhere along the line I had. Like so many, I had set up direct debits from the beginning for ease and so I wouldn’t overlook the payments. I knew living in an apartment complex came with extra costs which I thought I had a handle on, but as I looked deeper into my outgoings I found this to be far from the truth. The body corporate had increased a couple of months earlier, which was quite a jump, however, I was aware of that. I was not aware though of the many hidden extras I was paying when it came to the water and gas and various other utilities. Were they there in the beginning or had they slowly been added over time so as to not notice the impact they may later have? In essence, I was paying out three payments for my water supply for a single person in a one bedroom apartment. Just Crazy.
This month though various insurances and car registration were due on top of the usual mortgage, electricity and internet. Anyway, I shall stop there as I’m sure you by now get the picture. The grand total just for the month of August, this did not include by mortgage repayment, food or ‘normal’ living expenses was $7,600. WTF!!!
Well, I just burst into tears, fear ran through me like a waterfall. I felt helpless and at a complete loss as to how I was going to manage this, let alone survive! What an awareness though I had just received. I automatically thought, wow wow and wow, even if I owned my place I would never ‘own it’ or be free of the constraints that have been slowly placed on us to enslave us further and further. If it wasn’t the bank, it would be the council, or one of the countless government agencies we have now controlling us in some way or another. One thing I did know in this moment was NO MORE, ENOUGH, I am not going to play this game of deception and enslavement any longer, I really could see no point in it all.
I now realize that this ‘truth bomb’ was the catalyst for wanting to have nothing more to do with the matrix. I began disentangling myself as much as I could. One step at a time! The red pill or the blue pill? It could not be both. I could not undo what I had learnt. It was time to walk my talk and continue down the rabbit hole in earnest.
I decided over the coming week to get a couple of valuations just to see what may be possible. Neither of them felt right to me at the time as property prices had exploded and I did not feel this had been reflected. I put them in the draw, decided to let it all go and felt I would know what to do when the time was right.
Near the beginning of October as I was getting up, that voice once again appeared with a message to get dressed and head across the road to the Real Estate Agent and sell my property. I had no intentions of using this agent as I wasn’t impressed with them when I was looking at purchasing in the area initially. Anyway, once again I didn’t question as it felt right, so off I went across the road to speak with the principle of the agency. I explained to him that I was looking to sell my apartment but I didn’t want to put in on the market and the figure that came into my mind at the time. He didn’t flinch, he said he had some people on his books and a person in mind and he would get back to me. One day later he bought a potential buyer through who loved it however he didn’t over the amount I wanted, so I turned it down. Two more days later a couple came through, loved it and bought it for the amount I wanted and in cash. Done!
Now what to do. I simply had no idea what I was going to do or even where I was going to go next…….
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