“Back to my inner journey of discovery once again”
I had begun following Asil by this time, opening my world and mind further to the possibility of there being so much more than I had ever been led to believe or could have imagined. For the first time in my life though, I felt I was coming home, life was beginning to make sense, although I was along way from such a deep understanding. I applied myself to this work that was bringing forth a greater awareness, healing and a deep sense of peace and presence that was supporting my life and awakening process.
I had also been working more and more with my energy centres (chakras) through yoga, balancing and aligning them. Attempting to find silence through meditation, which was not easy as I found that my ego mind would just not be silenced due to the ever increasing chaos that had become my internal and external world. I was walking around my lake one to three times a day (4.5 km) as I was being drawn more and more to connect with nature and mother earth.
I was still navigating all this through the “p.andemic” The energies were affecting me on a much deeper level. Some days I would step outside and be so overwhelmed with emotion that I could do nothing other than return to the sanctuary of my home which had become my bubble. My dreams were becoming “lucid”, mainly at this time, of children in tunnels etc. I was feeling the energy and emotion of these visions and thoughts. I was becoming a little “more” unhinged as I could not discern whether I had been the ‘victim’ or the ‘villan’, which was really messing with my state of mind. This shadow part of me though was ready and wanting to be seen.
I was unable to navigate through this myself at this time, as I was falling deeper and deeper into old destructive patterns as a way of coping. Which of course was hindering my progress. Seriously, I was a mess. Emotional, crying outbursts, sleepless nights. You name it, I was there. Around this time, the name of a multi-dimensional healer kept presenting itself to me so I new it was time to seek help to support me in releasing these deep deep memories and emotions.
This healing clarified much. I had chosen to experience a couple of lifetimes as a “stolen and abused” child to give me the understanding of some of the ‘collective trauma’ which would need to be healed in this lifetime among others. Once this can of worms was opened, much more came up and released at this moment, freeing me up to now move forward without this dense dense vibration. It did take a few sessions before I new that I was now ready to move on, lighter and more focused. Interestingly, up to this point, I had only been made aware of past lives as a healer/oracle etc and some of the usual endings which came with that, which many many of us have experienced.
2021 was such a big year for me as I look back while writing these blogs. I don’t think I had realized until now how instrumental it had been in the changes that were to come. 2021 isn’t yet over though, as so many more insights were to come…..
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